im here typing this, simply kuz, I don;t know who to share it with. I thought I;d share this to God but then I might as well write this first to see how things go through.
You know, there comes a time where you wanna feel like you wanna be loved by people. You want to be liked by other people, like as in to have people having crushes on you and stuff.
At a moment in my life, I wanted to feel like this. I think kuz its simply out of jelousy i think? I;m not sure yet, buh i think it is at the moment.
You know how gay it is to hear people talk about their special someone these days? or dudes talking about some pretty girl that likes them back and stuff. Its gay when you;re just sitting there when they suddenly ask you, "what about you bro? Whats going on in your love life?" and all you can say is "nothing bro." fuck.
I would have to say that being single can be a blessing since you have the freedom and stuff.
But for me.. I;m the kind of person who NEEDS a special someone. Not because of having to feel of being loved by another, but because, it simply makes me feel whole. It gives me responsibilty, happyness.. a whole lot of things. Don;t get me wrong though, its not that im using that special someone to make me feel like that. Well im not really using my special someone, its kuz i need that special someone and if you dont know yet, needing something is alot more different than wanting something.
All I want I guess is for that special someone..my dream girl..to just come. Kuz atm, im tired. Im tired of tryna find her. Im tired of hurting. I dont want to sit still kuz its boring.
Right now, im in a position where i know some people who like me. lyk crushes and stuff.
I do hope that they dont tell me yet, kuz i dont wanna tell them that i aint ready yet, or simply say that i dont like them back. Kuz man, i dont like hurting people.
Come to think of it, wishing to be liked by other people is GAY.
One would be enough.
And right now, im hoping that the One person would be the one.
haha kina hoping that, that one person is this girl i talk to every now and then.
Kuz yeah.. i dunno. theres just sumthing about her i guess.
Buh hey, we;ll see yeah?
Im not ready yet, buh ill see how things go through kuz yeah, may never know that I might regret sumthing that i should have done. so yeah.
Thanks for the ear blog. You;re a great listener.
Take care, and God Bless haha :D
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